The Big Picture

I once had a teacher in middle school tell my parents that I was really good at seeing 'the big picture". He said that I was more grounded and had a better sense of reality then some adults he knew. Taking this into account, I know that what my husband and I are doing now will help us build a better life later. I know that he has to leave now so that he can be there for everything later on. He has to leave now so that he doesnt have to work himself to death after he leaves the Navy. He leaves now so that he can get a good job and make enough money to give our kids the things we didnt have. I know all this, but its hard to remember these things when Im spending anniversaries alone. Its hard to remember these things when my best friend/love of my life/my everything is somewhere in the middle of the ocean and Im all alone in a delivery room giving birth to our son. Its hard to keep it all in perspective when I get used to spending Christmas without my husband. So, if I want to complain about how bad things suck, then I have a right to. I know that this isnt going to last forever but for now, I have every right to complain.